The end is near...

Good Evening [well its nearly evening anyway]

First i want to say sorry for the 'Im MAD' entry haha lookin back i was an ASS haha

anyway as the title of this entry sez 'the end is near' and it sure is, TEE started today- written exams that is [orals for other languages started last week]. most of my friends had their first exam today Applicable Mathematics. I suppose luckily for me i only start my exams this thrusday ie 10th of november [the english paper] im glad i have english to start with. why? well i am always use to starting exams off with english and also because during the exams its constant writing it kinda hits me more that 'oh yeah exams have now started' haha i probably sound weird saying that. ah well. On something different i was pissed before but not anymore i was sick now im still sick but not as sick i was before haha. i had/have a stupid cough and cold but ah well. there is nothing i can do about that i just hope it goes away before thursday =) [sorry this sickness stuff must have been a but ranDom. but who cares right?]

Lately ive been an awful person though, ive become a constant whiner- it shits me and im sure it shits everyone else. i continue to say sorry for it but i cant kick the habit. it probably annoys me so much because if anyone else does it often it pisses me off. so it would make me angry to know ive become what i hate.

Anyway that wasnt wat i was meant to talk about i actually just wanted to say what my TEE time table is:

Thursday 10 November- English 9.20am @ Penrhos College
Friday 11 November- Discrete Mathematics 9.20am @ Penrhos College
Wednesday 16 November- Information Systems 2.00pm @ Canning College
Monday 21 November- Politcal and Legal Studies 9.20am @ Penrhos College
Monday 21 November- Accounting 2.00pm @ Penrhos College

Now i know i have complained about this before the DOUBLE of PNL and Accounting AHH haha that is the worst double ever! my brain is most likely to exploDE! but im glad the double is on the last day of exams for me cuz then i rekon i will feel very satisfied and also after if i feel really tired i can just sleep for the rest of the day. but *sigh* it will be annoying knowing pretty much everyone, apart from freya, will be celebrating because pnl would have been their last exam. oh well- i will try to be positive *thumbs up*

Plus im a bit of a useless buM. i have ZERO motivation, so even though exams are about to start for me ive done like nothinG. and even though my mother nags it doesnt work. cuz i should be studying like shiTE but nope haha nothing. Now when i think about it, if i dont get the course i want.... will i blame myself? or just move on and accept it? im glad i thought of this Q that way wen i find out what i got into [or what i didnt get into] i can come back to this blog n respond. haha * Claire is thinking =D

im also starting to worry about my maths exam, because im scared i will walk in and not know how to do anything- AT ALL ['o'] <--- thats a shocked face by the way. haha its annoying how this blog has no emotion pictures, that be cooL =). anyway back to wat i was saying im actually scared like that for all of em except english cuz i tend to make it up anyway and i just hope for the best haha =D

Sorry this is such an 'unstructured' entry but goin back to the 'no motivation' because im like that i also feel no pressure at this moment. although i dont feel weird because when i had mocks my attitude was also like this haha.

i was tellin my friend ricki how oddly enough im actually quite excited about TEE in a sense how this is the END. once u do that exam i could literally burn those books, notes etc. related that that subject OR throw them out the window- haha u get what i mean =D. but that will be fun after its over being able to chuck out A LOT of that craP- however i will be keeping my accounting stuff i think. it might help for the uni course i plan to do. =)

oh yeah i will just quickly run over what happened last week- well for one thing it was the last week of schooL! AH haha in the first few days we were just getting back our mock exam papers from our teachers [i failed one paper >.<] ah well im over it. we had the father daughter dinner that was cool a couple of the dads got a bit drunk haha and me and my dad danced which was funny cuz my dad doesnt know how to dance at all and as he sed "claire im not comfortable doing this..." and im like okok after this song u can go sit down if u want okay? but he was good cuz my dad tends to send ppl the msg that hes a but anti social but he made a few friends with the other dads so that was good *smile*

we also had valedictory service- that was really sad. our form teacher miss edmunds cried and that made us wanna cry..... =( haha nah but lots of my friends cried, and im the sort when i see someone else cry i feel like i wanna cry too and haha its worse when i know the person. but we got presented with a scroll and a yellow rose. it was funny though, i dont think anyone expected to cry so no one had tissues hehe

also at our last form our form teachers- [M6 Clarkie, M5 Miss Ed] gave us a pressie M6 got little pot plants and ed gave us all little silver graduation hats hehe and drew us all a personalised card so that was really cooL =)

then it came to the last day of school- so saD! we all came to school in our modified versions of our school uniforms [i stayed up till 1am to finish mine haha] then we had a slide show of photos of us yr 12s during the years. Then the flower ceremony i gave flowers to friends and got flowers from friends i was surprised to get a flower from our form of 'little sisters' [its like a peer support group] and then we had the yr 12s final assembly hahah i lost it there at one point i couldnt stop crying- although i was holding it all in for a bit. hehe and my mum came to it i could see her and i saw her crying too- funny. it was nice though we all bonded a lot like a big family =D

This first part of the day was already quite exhausting. in the night we had a graduation dinner that was really good. just a time for all of us to relax and enjoy the night. food wasnt great but dancing was a lot of fun. although i felt a bit left out a lot of the girls went out shopping i should have done that too. would have been fun. i just stayed at home though- alone.

well as always im sticking to my procastinating ways =) im gonna go now because i think i should and i dont really have anything else to say [well i do but i dont want to say it. this 'thing' will probably work out on its own anyway]

anyway good- bye, hope u enjoy ur evening and if any year 12 or any uni student whatever if ur soon or currently having exams, if u read this well i wish u the best of luck and take care!- [dont get sick like i did haha =)] oh yeah sorry about typos if any but frankly i dont care about them haha

bye!