Tuesday, April 11, 2006

It's been a while.

evening to you all just thought i should write an entry cuz i havent in a while im into my 7th week of uni- how weird is that it still feels surreal. but i miss the good ole' school days *sigh* however so far ive seen most of friends like every week or so [on the weekends]. ive made few new friends- im not 'daring' enough haha i dont know what word to use. sometimes i worry that i am unapproachable cuz my mum sez i have a stuck up face so haha i try to smile all the time. but i think more of the problem is haha i need to TALK- i blame my shyness but maybe im just lazy, hell i dont know. lately ive had lots of late nights i feel drained- ive had lots of asg to do (last min ones) i guess its my own fault then. I SUCK! i know i do such a MOFO slacker. i tell myself that so many times but i do shit all to fix it so i think i will be ~forever lazy~

but hey fuk it- its the way i am! XD

ive been going to a few parties- lots of 18ths so that means alcohoL. i use to really like boozing + partying, but now im kinda off it i dont have as much fun as i usually do. not sure why.... this 'thing' has happened a lot- this 'thing' im referring to is something unknown makes me depressed or not have as much fun and i never seem to figure out what it is in the end. the only reason i can think of now is hormones hahah or something but it shouldnt be by 17 my hormones should be less 'jumpy' hehe i dont really know what im talking about.

i know most of this entry has been random but i guess im in a ranting mood- more on ranting i do feel that i kinda want a bf after all im 17 and still havent had one. but i guess there is no rush. i still do think im good either way [single or taken] but im swaying more to the taken side haha ahh... i think im a bit of a sad child. =
anyway i dont really feel like ranting anymore
so bye to no one cuz i think no one reads this blog but bye anyway.

i think im a little depressed now *sigh*